I’m so excited to share with you this edition of His Daughters. I am so blessed to have gotten to know Kristina Glackin a little bit, and I know you will be blessed too! Let’s dive into her story! Check out Kristina’s interview:
Tell us a little bit about yourself. What are you all about?
Well, I am 29 years old, I write and perform spoken word poetry, speak at women’s conferences and help fight human trafficking. Oh, and did I mention, I’m a single mom? That’s where Jesus comes in! He changed my entire life, my every desire and strengthens me to do what seems impossible every single day.
When did you become a Christian?
I always considered myself a Christian, even though I never went to church or actually followed Jesus, I thought that because I believed, I was a Christian. I had NO idea the peace that was available through a real relationship with God, through Jesus Christ until 4 and a half years ago.
What happened 4 and a half years ago that allowed caused you to come to this realization about having a relationship with Jesus?
I always had the belief that Jesus existed, but I didn’t understand what that meant and had no relationship with Him until 4.5 years ago. I came to a point in my life where I was overcome by fear, anxiety, and anger. I was diagnosed with PTSD from having been trafficked [see below], OCD, Generalized anxiety, social anxiety, and depression. I was a MESS.
I suffered from panic attacks that would last hours almost daily and it got to the point where it affected my health. One night, in the midst of one of the longest, most intense panic attacks I ever had, I cried out to God… not to save me, but to take my life. I remember saying “Just take my life! Why am I even living? I cant do this!!”
And then, each time I closed my eyes that night, it was as if I stopped breathing. After 4-5 times of waking up gasping for air, it hit me: God really could take my life! My desperation shifted.
“Ok God, I don’t want to die but I just can’t do this anymore!! I can’t do it!! If you’re going to make me keep living, you have to do it for me.” I don’t even remember falling asleep after that, I just remember waking up the next morning with overwhelming JOY!
It was as if I had been saturated in love for the first time EVER! I was so giddy, pacing back and forth just saying “God??!!? God??! GOD!!???!” I knew it was Him; I knew He was going to do it for me! And that hasn’t left me-even in the most difficult trials! That was the LAST panic attack I’ve ever had!! I. Am. Free.
After you became a Christian, did you embrace your identity in Christ?
I’d like to say I knew who I was in Christ right away, but, I didn’t. I didn’t even REALLY know who HE was, there was no way I could understand the fullness of who I am to Him. So, I began learning about the God who saved me. [I was] trying to wrap my head around why He would want to save me, and figuring out how I could put into words the love, peace, joy, and contentment that came after I cried out to Jesus.
What has been your journey with identity?
After getting a clear picture of who God is, I starting being shown who I am. It was difficult to accept initially, seeing as though I never knew my real dad and didn’t have a healthy home life, even being in foster care for two years, understanding and ACCEPTING that I was a child of GOD didn’t come easy. But that didn’t stop God from pursuing my heart!
Even when I started to walk in my identity, the enemy would come in whispering lies of doubt and confusion, it made some days harder than others.
What were some of the lies the enemy whispered, and how were you able to combat them?
The biggest lie was “You are not worth loving”. It was heavy. Some days, I believed it. But, God always led me to His word, to the TRUTH. Yeah, I probably wasn’t worth loving, but God demonstrated His love for me that while I was yet a sinner, Christ died for me (Romans 5:8)!
Another lie was that I would never be accepted. Rejection had a stronghold on my mind for a while. Yet again, God’s word destroyed that lie. You see, there was comfort knowing that my sin bothered me-that God was correcting me. “As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent” (Revelation 3:19).
“For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.” (Romans 8:15)
He showed me that I have been adopted and I am His daughter. Nothing will separate me from His great love!
What do you believe about your identity now?
Now, I KNOW, that I am precious in the sight of God. Even when the world doesn’t see it, to be honest, even when I don’t see myself that way, He does.
I believe His word.
I believe that I was worth dying for…
and I believe that He created me to be in relationship with [Him] and nothing, not even my sin, was going to stop Him from that.
I am His little girl. He is truly a Father to the fatherless.
What do you believe is your kingdom purpose?
It is so hard to sum up my purpose! I suppose, primarily, to glorify God and show the world the work He has done in me, the peace and joy that is available to us through Jesus if we would only recognize how much we need Him, that we can’t do it on our own… humble ourselves.
Beyond that, I believe my purpose is to encourage build up and disciple other women. Also, not to get too deep, but at 18 years old, I was set up and a victim of human trafficking for 7 days. Never in a million years did I dream that I would be sharing that story, infused with the Gospel, in order to help stop trafficking. And of course, draw some people to Christ!
I can’t leave out my primary ministry: My Children. I am a single mother, now celibate until marriage, but my children have their own relationship with God and they get to watch me as I grow, seek and serve the Lord.. and hopefully, they will, too.