I said Goodbye
Do you ever get to that breaking point?
that Soul-aching point?
That reach into your soul and find a sole leaf shaking point?
You’ve done too much, you’ve gone too low and now it’s beginning to show.
Your belly is beginning to grow.
Pregnant with the deeds that you did sow.
You say here I am again Master.
You set me free
but I’ve allowed someone else to master me.
His words so sweet. gave from the tree…
I took the bait. And now… my fate.
My nakedness made known
covered with shame now my body does groan.
Shame… shame so deep…
I can’t accept my own name.
To be loved is for one to delight in…
but how could you delight in me
Father there’s no light. in. me.
no light that I can see
how could you delight in the ugly darkness. in. me.
How could you dance over my deeds of death
How Lord could you even grant me my next breath?
To be loved is to be known and accepted
accept what you have known?
Accept disgrace that I have shown?
Accept my body being blown?
This way and that way
whatever he say or she say
To be loved is to be held – to behold
from within the womb You beheld me
from within the womb You named me
within the womb You framed me
within the womb You called me …Beloved
Why would you name me so?
My name is beloved and yet I am so unworthy
I can’t accept my name
10,000 times I have shamed thee
10,000 times you said be free
10,000 times I said I now see
10,000 times I still shame thee
What have I done and what do I do
I always come back crying to You
Too many times
too many rhymes
5 letters to say sorry
more letters to repent
too many letters but You still sent…
all to just turn back
to go back to the shackles that You stripped away
You stripped away
yes YOU made the way
Father PLEASE hear me today.
Please don’t turn me away
I can’t hear You… make a way.
If You are silent I can understand why
I don’t even seem to try
even though for me You did die.
So here I stand before You and cry
I need your help to get by
I need to know that Your love is no lie
Unwavering and true
Your love does not depend on what I do.
Unwavering and true
Your love is the only thing that can get me through
through the mess and through the lies
through my sin until I say goodbye
goodbye forever it has no hold on me
goodbye forever because my God… has loved me.
Walking in His love…
there is no greater thing. I praise God for extending to me His UNCONDITIONAL Love. There are times when the word “known” makes me cringe. If God knows me, then He knows my filth. He knows my darkest thought. And yet He still. loves. me. HE LOVES ME! OH HOW HE LOVES ME!
amazing love. how can it be? that thou my God should die for me!?